It's been a loooong time...

Oh, how long it has been since I have been here and typing down my thoughts. I had a little convo earlier today with a friend from Iowa. She was praising me for my big move and having it all together and oh, how the purging was probably an awesome thing. And how she needed to do something, but it was all just too overwhelming. And she was just so proud of me....

I told her not to be.

I am a big baby!

I do not have things under control.

S-baby had a nightmare last night that the crocodiles were getting her. Again. She has had this dream before. Go ahead and analyze it for me if you can.

I like the new neighbors. I like the school. I like the town. But, I like Iowa better! That's all there is to it. A year from now, I may feel differently, but now that is how I feel today.

The kids are really not sleeping well. One or all of them awake at least once a night and one or two of them end up in our bed. I end up on the couch in our room or in one of there three beds ~ nearly every night lately, it seems. This is not good for me. I am already half psychotic...I don't need this sleep deprivation on top of that.

S-baby told me in her sleepy state last night, as we moved from the couch to J-man's bed at around 4 AM, that she was "scared of this house" and "can we just go back to our other house?". I bit my lip. Poor babies.

I told my husband this morning and said, "We really can't relate to what they are feeling as we both were in the same houses our whole childhood." My parents still have the same home. His mom just sold hers a few years ago...and it wasn't easy. So, there are some adjustments to be made for our little ones. Many people do it. We will get through it.

I have no goal on this post today. Just to post and to ramble.

But to feel some sense of accomplishment that...

"I am back!"